This is Jake's Story...

Jake is a 20-year-old twin who has been diagnosed with stage 4 Rhabdomyosarcoma, a very rare form of cancer. Going through a vigorous daily radiation treatment and weekly Chemo treatments make him extremely tired, weak and sometimes nauseous.

Jake is otherwise a normal teenage kid. He likes playing computer games, paintball, swimming and golfing. He loves hanging out with his four brothers, 4 wheeling, camping, and ruining his mom's laundry baskets while making home videos. He hopes to someday become a computer programmer.

This blog was started to keep his family and friends updated on his status.

Addendum: Jake became cured of cancer, free of pain and everything this world brings on September 29, 2010. He continues his journey in Heaven. He is doing awesome! Hope you're doing the same!

His family thanks you for your generosity in donations, love and service. God has shown us many tender mercies!
Thanks for being one of them!

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

I'm wondering...

It's been 5 months now, since we laid Jake's body to rest in our newly acquired plot of land at the Lehi Cemetary.  I'm wondering when the ache in my heart will stop.  When can I think of my Jake without tears running down my face or out and out bawling.  He may be better off...but I'm not.

No regrets, but...I can't stop my heart from hurting. 
I feel peace.
I feel loved.
But...I also feel the deepest sorrow I never thought possible.  It's helped me understand how deeply I love my children...all of them, and how connected to them I am...and how grateful I am for the knowledge that I will be with them in the life hereafter.

A painfully deep lesson to learn...wrapped in love from God.