Chemo: Week 36

After blood and platelets last week, counts are looking a lot better!  Last short chemo today.  Long chemo next week, then if we can keep his counts up...Last chemo...May 3rd!

Maybe this is not the end of our cancer journey, but it will be the end of treatment...for now!  I hope no one thinks less of me for not bonding with the other cancer parents.  I just found it so heart breaking to listen to their stories.  Maybe it's a little easier when your not going through it with your own child.

This experience has opened up a Pandora's Box of emotions and feelings I never dreamed I would experience.  It has changed me.  All of the parents I have met agree that we have learned much more about cancer and medical terms than we ever imagined would be necessary.

I've learned that to make it through hard stuff, you can never dwell on it.  It's necessary to acknowledge it, but dwelling on it is very depressing.  That's why is hard to keep repeating how Jake's doing, over and over again.  It is a constant reminder that he is ill.  I know people just want to show they care, and that's the part that I appreciate.  I think I just have to tell them he's fine and let them look on the blog to see how he's really doing.

We often make ourselves more depressed because we think life is suppose to be easy and good all the time.  Well, life is hard and often it's not fun or easy!  But, if you trying your best, and living your life in partnership with God, even though it's sometimes hard, it can always be good!

Like I tell my boys...You don't have to like it, you just have to do it!