I stopped again, at the saddest place I've ever been...in my heart and in this world...Jake's grave site. The base stone is in and the headstone is coming soon...a sad reminder of who I'm missing.
How I wish I couldn't relate to others who have buried a child!
Oh, Jake! I know you are in a fabulous place...but when will my heart stop hurting so? Does time heal all wounds? If it does...let's let time speed to that place where my heart doesn't ache so much when I think of the fact that I won't get to talk to you for a long, long time...when thoughts of the love and the Jake and Mom bonding time we are missing doesn't bring tears and silence of words because I am too choked up or crying.
You know, I don't live in that sad place all the time...just when I reflect and ponder.
Jake, you're pretty great with computers. Could you sign me up for Heaven Skype...life time membership? I just want to talk to you and see what you've been up to. I want to know who you hang out with, where you have visited, who you've met and what you're doing now. Are you dating anyone? I know there are lots of beautiful girls up there!
How are you? Do you miss us too, or is it different because you can see us? I still love the banter between me and the boys...but we sure miss your input! You are just so funny! You're one of a kind, Jake! We are just trying to get along without you!
You've probably seen that John and Zack got jobs and Zack found himself a girlfriend! Don't worry, I think John and Mike will tease her enough for you....Caitlin!...I love you! I'll make sure they say that for you! I'm sorry she didn't get to know you, Jake! She would love you too!
You know what's weird? When I go shopping, I have to think about who I'm buying stuff for! You know that some of the groceries were you're favorites or your requests. When I'm putting stuff in the cart I have to think...now who is it that likes this? There seems to be a lot of unopened boxes of Lucky Charms in the food storage room. I guess when Mike brings all his friends over and wants to feed them, I'll tell them they can have Lucky Charms.
Let me know when you get that Heaven Skype up and running, will you?
I miss you, bud! Sometimes more that my heart can hold.
Big Mommy Hug!
This is Jake's Story...
Jake is a 20-year-old twin who has been diagnosed with stage 4 Rhabdomyosarcoma, a very rare form of cancer. Going through a vigorous daily radiation treatment and weekly Chemo treatments make him extremely tired, weak and sometimes nauseous.
Jake is otherwise a normal teenage kid. He likes playing computer games, paintball, swimming and golfing. He loves hanging out with his four brothers, 4 wheeling, camping, and ruining his mom's laundry baskets while making home videos. He hopes to someday become a computer programmer.
This blog was started to keep his family and friends updated on his status.
Addendum: Jake became cured of cancer, free of pain and everything this world brings on September 29, 2010. He continues his journey in Heaven. He is doing awesome! Hope you're doing the same!
His family thanks you for your generosity in donations, love and service. God has shown us many tender mercies!
Thanks for being one of them!
Jake is otherwise a normal teenage kid. He likes playing computer games, paintball, swimming and golfing. He loves hanging out with his four brothers, 4 wheeling, camping, and ruining his mom's laundry baskets while making home videos. He hopes to someday become a computer programmer.
This blog was started to keep his family and friends updated on his status.
Addendum: Jake became cured of cancer, free of pain and everything this world brings on September 29, 2010. He continues his journey in Heaven. He is doing awesome! Hope you're doing the same!
His family thanks you for your generosity in donations, love and service. God has shown us many tender mercies!
Thanks for being one of them!
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
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