I can't believe it's been a week!

I can't believe it's been a week already! Jake has been with me since his spirit left his body...until 2:30 this morning! I woke up...and he had gone. I seem to hear his guide say..."It's time to leave her, Jake! She's going to be ok now...just let go of her heart. I promise it won't break if you let go." ...and then he let go...my heart kept beating...still in one piece. He left to go do whatever he is suppose to do now.

I recall when Jake was 6 and I was going into labor with Spencer. He hated seeing me in pain. He held my hand...it was all I could do not to crush is little hand each time a contraction came. He watched my face and listened for my breathing to increase...then he would grab my hand.

I left the house for the first time Monday. The viewing was amazing! So many hugs! My friends did an awesome job setting up pictures, had music

Beautiful flowers!

Beautiful casket spray designed and created by my SisNlaw, Janet

White Cali Lilies for peace

While roses for heaven

6 red roses for the ones he left behind

1 red rose in the middle...because Jake is still part of us

made with love, sweat and tears!

The funeral started with the fire alarm going off for some time...before we could start. We found that amusing! Zack read the obituary, then he and John told of the Jake-isms we remembered. The one I forgot to include is how he would sit downstairs, in the dark and wait to scare me. The bigger the scream, the bigger the accomplishment! I think they would rate them...a good scream was about a 6 and a scream and a punch was a 9! He would often bleat my name like a sheep...Maaaam, Maaaam! I can't beleive he got John to do the "Jake" dance! Jake couldn't lift his feet too well from some of the chemo he got...so he made up his own little dance. All the boys would stand in a line and do it...so funny!

I somehow found the strength to talk at his funeral. I will post that talk later, for those who weren't able to hear it.

The brothers, uncles, friends and best friend's dads carried him to the hurst and to his final resting place at the Lehi Cemetary...in our newly acquired deeded property.

Even in this saddest day of our lives...lots of love in the Holladay Family!

Greatful for my awesome guys!

My RS Peeps

A few (not all) of the awesome friends who put everything together!

Our friend, Rich, who played some amazing guitar while we ate our fabulous luncheon!

Lucky Charms was Jake's gaming name and gummy sharks were his favorite treat.  I don't know how they got these, but someone printed out the Lucky Charms label and found all these small boxes of cereal and put them on every table!  My friends are the coolest!

So many hugs!  So many friends, neighbors and family here for our support!  Flowers...so many beautiful flowers!  We have them in every room...even the bathroom!

We thank everyone for the love and kindness and your support during this sad time for us.  Even my racquetball buddies came and my Biggest Loser Team and trainer!  Friends and neighbors came from near and far to show their love and support for Jake and our family...not to mention the valet guy from Primary Childrens, some of the nurses, the sweet lady who ran the parent support group, all of Dave's work buddies/bosses, old friends from old neighborhoods and college, old friends from high school...I bet if I asked all of my best friends to raise their hands...half the audience would have.  You guys are amazing!